Perks

I am an absolute bookworm. It is a safe assumption that at any given time you'll find a book in whatever bag I'm carrying. Generally, I wont carry purses that don't fit a book in them. Now while I'm a definite book enthusiast, it is rare for me to read a book that speaks to me on such a deep level, one that truly affects my emotions. 

The Perks of Being a Wallflower reached me on a level that no other book has done in a very long time. The raw emotion expressed, the feelings of inadequacy and loneliness, I just couldn't believe just how relatable it all was. What Charlie was feeling, you felt with him. When he described how much he loved Sam, you wanted to have someone feel that way about you, to describe you in such a flawless, nonjudgmental way. When he defended Patrick, you wanted to have a friend who cared so deeply for you. You just want someone as selfless and understand as Charlie is. But then you also want to have Charlie in your life just so you can be there for him. So you can make him feel better, make him see that nothing is his fault. You want to be the friend to him that he is to everyone else.

While I was reading the book, there were times when I honestly could not put it down. You just become so consumed by everything that he is feeling that you can't bring yourself to close the book and put the experience on hold. After I finished the book I had to just sit there quietly and fully absorb everything that I had read. I must have sat silently for 10 minutes and just fully absorbed all the emotion that this one book had brought out in me. That is how powerful this book is. It speaks to your mind and soul. 

I'm not picky about the type of books I read. I try to give any book a fair chance, regardless of author or genre. But it is rare that I enjoy a book so much that it goes in to my list of top books. This book was one that I just could not imagine not having on that list. It is the type of book that after you are done reading it, you can't ever imagine having not read it. This book truly allows the reader to, for a moment, feel infinite. 

Momentary freak out...

So I guess this is that moment in every educated young persons life where they start to feel like they know absolutely nothing and have no clue where they're going. I'm halfway through my final year of college and all I can think about is how I have absolutely no clue what I'm going to do next year. 

I know that in my heart journalism is where I want to be. Writing for a magazine has always been the end goal. And as I'm typing away I can't help but think how the need for print is slowly going down. 

But there's always online writing, print isn't my only option. 

Then on the other hand I'm wondering if I should play it safe and go in to marketing. It'll compliment my first degree and there's guaranteed to be work in marketing. 

Ugh, I just want to be the next Carrie Bradshaw, minus the sad love life and constant need for validation. I just want to be writing for a magazine, online or in print, living in a fabulous apartment with even more fabulous clothes. Although, rereading that last paragraph I guess it's pretty obvious which program really want to be in. 

I didn't expect this to be a complaining post but I guess that what it turned out to be! 

Only positivity to come from now on!! 

better late than never

So clearly I'm not off to a great start with this blog. I posted for the first, and only, time six months ago. Not exactly a constant flow huh? I guess it's just that I know that I want to write but I'm always so unsure of what it is I want to write about. I know that I love books but should I write a book review? I love fashion but am I really able to post my own articles on her? Then I realized that this is MY blog and I can post whatever the hell it is I want on here. Rather than over thinking things, which I have a pretty bad habit of doing, I should just create something that I love, something that makes me feel great. Not worry about if people are going to read it or like it or whatever else has been on my mind.  I said that this blog was going to be about me experiencing and living my life. Not about me being too worried to post things in fear that no one will read it or respond to it.

So that's where my mind is at right now. I'm finally realizing what I want this blog to be to me. I want it to be my outlet, my own zone to create and say and feel whatever it is I want, so that's what I;m going to make it. If it reaches out to anyone, then that's great. If it doesn't then I'll just be happy to have it to myself.

For anyone who i planning on following along, stay tuned because there's a lot of posts to come!

Enjoy xox

A New Chapter

I’ve always wanted to work for a fashion magazine. I somehow just always knew, that was what I was meant to be doing. I started off studying in Journalism only to realize it wasn’t the program for me. Now I’ve moved on to Fashion Marketing and despite hating half off the people I’m forced to work with, I love it. The new downside to my dream is people telling me that working in print is starting to be regarded as a “dying breed”. Everything is online apparently. I can social media with the best of them but blogging, well that’s new to me. So this is my first real official blog. And by official I mean it in the sense that I will not only be reblogging other peoples pictures like I have done before. 

This blog is going to be dedicated to being young, experiencing life, whatever is going on in my life and of course my true love, fashion. But unlike some other fashion blogs I will not be posting avant garde pictures of models walking around in one piece jumpsuits that cover them from head to toe or women wearing feathers dresses with tails. I will be posting about the fashion that I love, fashion that the everyday woman can love. Although that isn’t to say that they’ll be everyday prices! What can I say, I’m a sucker for a great purse! 

So I hope everyone enjoys my future posts, because unlike other blogs I’ve made attempts to keep up with, this one will be constantly updated and taken care of. This is my new baby! 

Enjoy, xox